Tulisan

Bulan2 belakangan ini, gw tu sering banget duduk didepan layar komputer. Pastinya kegiatan gw didepan komputer ngetik dong.

Gw buka Microsoft Soft 2003 (sori ni. Bukannya katro. Tapi kemaren komputer  gw kena firus kan, jadi di vormat, otomatis instalan pada buyar dong. Ya gw terima nasib aja klo instalan microsoftnya yg ada cm tahun 2003 gitu)

Nah, seperti awalnya klo kita mw ngetik, gw ganti  kan font2nya, ukuran fontnya, warna fontnya dn lain sebagainya. Gw pikir ini tuh enak bgt tau gak sih loh hidup di jaman komputer gni. Lu mw nulis apa juga lu tinggal ngetik. Lu mw tulisan lu warna pink juga bisa. Lu mw ada gambar bunga2nya bisa.  Lu mw tulisan lu super horor lu tinggal ganti fontnya ke "chiller", lu mw tulisan lu kesannya romantis abs miring2 gt lu gnti aja banyak tipe fontnya. Lu mw hapus, tinggal "backspace", yaa pokonya intinya semau lu gampang lah.

Nah. Ketika itu, suatu hari gw perlu menulis (pke tgn dan pulpen ya bowk) untuk kepentingan bon. Ternyata bon yang harus dituliskan cukup banyak. Dari situ gw jd nyadar betapa lelahnya tangan gw ini  untuk menulis yg sebenarnya gak trll banyak krn blm berlembar2. Tapi yang paling intinya ADALAH wow gw baru nyadar betapa jeleknya tulisan tangan gw. Seingat gw jaman2 kul rajin nyatet dlu itu, tulisan gw rapi dan enak dilihat lgpl bs dibaca. SEKARANG, boro2. tulisan siapa itu?? Jelek. Awut2an. Ga jelas. Bikin mata tmbah minus kli tu klo ada yg baca.

MAN! sebegitu mengaruhnya ya ni komputer yg blkgn ni gw andelin. Tulisan gw seketika hancur tak berbentuk. Sedih gw.. I swear..

Gw sedang berpikir...

Kira2...

Kgiatan menulis apa y yg enak.

Supaya gw itu terlatih nulis gitu

Dan tulisan gw kembali indah dliat.

Apa ya? Nulis diary?gw sedang ga demen.

Hmm.............apa ngmbil S2 aja gt ya?Kn nulis tuh. yg ditulis kn pnting jg tuh.Pelajaran kn.

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i  thought... maybe i could be a model

 

Just Story. IMPERFECTION.

It's so sad to know i dont have perfect life..
my fren ever said, : now it is ur turn to prove that u are perfect.
is that true?

she continues...: prove by accepting that imperfection and also by not staying with that imperfection.

I start to confuse. 

she : accept that ur life is not perfect. then...get up and make a move! Dont stay with only 1 thing in ur mind. there are so many things in this world u can do perfectly!and bla..bla..many things she said that time.

Yeah..yeah i said.

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Flashback...

I was 23years old. I was single. There was a boy has crushed on me. I started to judge him. Mark his bad and good thing but only focus with his good thing. That good thing should be : rich, thin, tall, good looking, macho and bla..bla.. If he's not that kind, the boy was finished. And yes it was. The boy was finished then. Three years has past since that moment. I've been through so many things in my life, my family, my frenship, society, all i wanna say is....

fren, i know now. i just dont wanna be perfect... all i want is kindness. I got a bad things, and what did i get?no perfection but only kindness can help me.. I'm nor perfect in my life still. But it should be perfect if i still have kindness around me. Keeping each other. Yes, it's keeping each other..

I pray to Allah to save my fam and my frens, thanks 4 loving me, caring me always...